Alanis soothes the soul

I’ve always been a huge Alanis Morissette fan. Despite the fact that I was only seven when the “Jagged Little Pill” album came out, I firmly believe it is one of the best records of the 90s (and maybe even beyond). One of the greatest things about the album is how wonderfully it embodies the emotion of what it’s like to be a 20-something woman. Whether you’re just flat pissed off about an ex (“You Oughta Know”) or trying everything once for the experience (“You Learn”), it’s so easy to relate to her songs – especially now that I’m in my 20s trying to make sense of the world.

One of my favorite songs lately is “Hand in My Pocket” because it so beautifully paints the picture of the dichotomy of barely being an adult but want to make your mark in the world.

I mean, how great are these lyrics?

I’m broke but I’m happy
I’m poor but I’m kind
I’m short but I’m healthy, yeah

I’m high but I’m grounded
I’m sane but I’m overwhelmed
I’m lost but I’m hopeful, baby

I feel drunk but I’m sober
I’m young and I’m underpaid
I’m tired but I’m working, yeah

And who’s never felt this?

I’m free but I’m focused
I’m green but I’m wise
I’m hard but I’m friendly, baby

I’m sad but I’m laughing
I’m brave but I’m chicken shit
I’m sick but I’m pretty, baby

Being at this point in life is hard. You feel like you’re supposed to have your crap together, but between student loan debt, trying to get a job, finding a significant other, starting a family, thinking you should be an adult but not really feeling like one etc. it often feels like nothing is ever going to get easier.

But at the end of the day, life goes on. You change and grow, for the better. And as Alanis says:

And what it all comes down to
Is that everything’s gonna be fine, fine, fine
Cause I’ve got one hand in my pocket
And the other one’s givin’ a high five

Homesick

When I first started on this journey to live in the big, bad city on my own, everyone asked “What? You’re moving somewhere where you have no friends? No family?”. At the time, I told them I was tough. I tend to hang by myself a lot of the time, anyways. It would be no big deal.

Oh, how naive I was.

Has it been terrible? No. It’s actually been okay for most of the three months I’ve been here. However, there are days, like today, when I miss home so badly it puts me in tears. Out of a pure need to vent, the list below is some of the things I’m missing today.

  • The atmosphere of East Lansing on Michigan-Michigan State game day.
  • People who love Glee just as much as I do.
  • A roommate, best friend, boyfriend or sister who will come crash and watch movies with me or sit and talk for no good reason.
  • Spur of the moment trips to the Peanut Barrel or Leo’s. Just because.
  • Hours-long complaining and/or gossip sessions about anything that happens to come up.
  • Seeing people’s faces, instead of just hearing their voices.
  • People who know I’m boring. And still like me anyways.
  • My East Lansing family.

I cannot say how excited I am to head back to the mitten for Thanksgiving.